First love

Sometimes I have chance to meet my first love, cause I fell in love with him in a certain goup I participated in. Damm it.This is very uncomfortable when we get together especially everybody knows our story. Anyway inspite of short period, I had really loved him, my first love, and after breake up, I had exprienced such a hard time. During I loved him, I was so happy although few friends said we didn't match and I heard about his ex love story. It didn't matter for me, anyhow finally we broke up. Until recently I had thought I had a great time with him, and had good image. However suddenly my mind has changed, when I met him recently he was not my first love in my dream any more. I realized he was mean..I was very upset because my first love was very precious and beautiful. It has changed to be misery.. Oh my godsh.. why I had such a hard time because of him. It wasn't love. I jus loved the feeling I love someone. It sounds very strange, but it is true. Now, I can see him in reality, not in a dream.