Getting a job

I couldn't sleep tonight. I don't know why but I must be stressful due to find a job I want.I was meeting one of my senior I like. She is generous and considerate. That's why I like her. Few months ago, she changed her job,one of the biggest broadcast in Korea, she really wanted. I was so happy becuase she deserve it. we talked about people we met a program which is traveling all over South Korea for 8days. Luckily we could travel without money because SK telecom, the biggest mobile company, supported us. At that time, people who participated in this program were very smart and clever. In fact, I participated in a club which realated this program so I could be with them without interview. Anyway, most of them, a little bit older than me, got a job recently and the job they got is sooo awesome. I thought they are amazing. I hope I get a job I want in this year. My parents said I should apply for some areas I don't like very much, so I have been upset and depressed. I'm not child anymore. Please let me do I want! I know they love me but this is my life and if they really love me, they should let me try to do I want.